Sunday, December 26, 2010
But now it's the day after Christmas. And today was the day, NYC and the surrounding areas was hit with a blizzard. I woke up to a sea of white trapping everyone in my uncle's house. It's been said that the snow would get as high as two feet. Which is a lot. And the blizzard warning is in effect until 6pm tomorrow supposedly.
So I've kind of just been in the house all day. To be honest, I probably would've stayed inside all day anyways. But this massive snowfall gives it an eerie feel to it. There are a bunch of other people around the house too, but for the most parts, the house is generally un-lit. So it's been feeling like night for a while. And it's hard to see outside the windows.
I suppose I feel trapped.
Not that I had some grandiose plans that have been interrupted. But nonetheless, I'm stranded. I can't really drive in these conditions. And I'm stuck(not necessarily in a bad way) with the same group of people. Everyone seems to be wandering around looking for something to do, in these dark hallways. I'm just sitting in one of the bedrooms while my cousin Ryan is on another bed in here, on his laptop. Oh! We also just watched the new reboot of Nightmare on Elm Street. Jackie Earle Haley is pretty cool guy. He plays Freddy Kreuger. But he's also played Rorshach in Watchmen and the sketchy, but awesomw Guerrero in Fox's show, Human Target. Not a bad movie. But I was also on AIM the whole time. So don't take my word for it.
Back to this doomed, trapped feeling...
...well, yeah. I feel trapped. Maybe I'll go outside into the snow. But I have no boots with me. And I hate the cold. And getting wet, sans the shower. Which leads me to believe I shouldn't go outside.
Yeah, driving conditions must suck. I wonder how many car accidents there have been because of it. It'd suck to have died the day after christmas. Atleast I still my laptop. I can escape via the internet. More than there being a lot of snow. It's so gloomy and dark. It makes today seem like some dark and foreboding time.
And I have a cold. I hate getting sick. It rarely ever happens. But since I don't have my own room here and we're all trapped, the chances of getting sick is higher with the forced contact. People get sicker in winter, not because of the cold temperatures directly. But because the cold outside, forces us to stay indoors and in closer physical contact. Making it easier to spread sickness.
THE MORE YOU KNOW.
I guess that's all I have to offer you right now, if you considered that, anything at all.
Sidenote: I want to make the time investment into Krav Maga again.
Friday, December 24, 2010
I can't be the only one who feels like this "holiday season" totally snuck up on me. School finished not even a week ago. And since I had school straight from September, sans Thanksgiving break, I feel like I came home looking for a break, only to be thrust into the chaos of CHRISTMAS SHOPPING.
Seriously, for a holiday meant to exude merriness, cheer, generousity, kindness, and so on, so forth--I hate people more than ever. Ok, not hate per se. But they do frustrate me much more, than usual. I'll admit, I can get annoyed while driving at those around me, for incompetent driving manuevers and poor driving etiquette, but for the most part, I am pretty laidback and patient with even the most moronic folks. Really though? C'mon, this is a little much.
Accounting for the moral of the season and the overarching themes that are publicized, I find that people tend to be more temperamental, impatient, rude, and just overall mean. This holiday season has people at each other's throats maybe because they're on the clock and under pressure to get the "perfect gifts." But this unneccesary emphasis on getting the "perfect gifts," has people showing their worst sides. I mean, I understand. We all have people in our lives we care about and want to impress with our thought and consideration via the presentation of a physical manifestation of our affection...in other words, a present. To what end though?
I mean, some of my griefs are inevitable. Considering where I live is already congested like hell, this shopping hysteria has the roads filled to max capacity, sometimes full for multiple blocks, making a typical 10 minute drive...into a half hour. Ok, traffic sucks. I get it. I'll deal for these next few days. But not only am I wasting more gas and more time than usual, but the quality of drivers is at an all-time low. I suppose that with the overall number of drivers increasing, we might assume that proportionally, the percentage of horrible drivers would also go up. People are cutting people off like it's their job, no one remembers what a signal is for, traffic laws go out the window, and no one wants to let anyone go. Because we are our own priority. We are what matters because we are in a hurry. Worse, the mall parking lot is so congested that cars roam like vultures and fight aggressively for a stupid spot closer to the entrance, lest they walk. God forbid they get some exercise. I know in one instance, two cars got into an accident over a spot. I wonder if it was worth it then.
I know that, personally, I had to slam hard on my brakes because some dumb girl was in such a rush, she neglects to look at whether the cars with a green light are going. Cause, why would cars with a green be driving? Nah, she was a bright one to run across the street like she was a damn frog with respawns. Luckily, my years of video gaming have honed my periphs and reflexes. Otherwise, she wouldn't have made it across the street to...WALGREENS? What a crappy place to die for. What're you doing? Getting someone a gift from there? Some cough syrup maybe? Or store brand snacks? I know I wouldn't want to leave this life getting hit by a car while running to a drug store.
I don't know. I wonder about people sometimes. It's upsetting that everyone is so trapped and entwined in their daily happenings and their lives that they neglect to look at the larger picture and the irrational decisions/actions they make or take. Isn't this the time of year where we try a little harder to reach out to others? To strangers? Maybe do something nice with no regard for whether that deed will be returned. What does it say about your character if you only care to look out for and benefit those, who are likely and clearly able to reciprocate? Why buy gifts for people, hoping that they will get you a gift in return? Just save your damn money, get it for yourself, and stop putting up this silly facade of genuinely caring.
I guess this time of a year, really expresses what your priorities are and what kind of person you want to be regarded as.
As we struggle with shopping lists and invitations, compounded by December's bad weather, it is good to be reminded that there are people in our lives who are worth this aggravation, and people to whom we are worth the same. - Donald E. Westlake
Thursday, December 16, 2010
So, what did I come here with the intention of writing? Good question, but a trick question...don't mind me. I'm borderline delirious from the mass amounts of music history I've been absorbing (all thanks to an awesome and terribly persistent girlfriend).
But yeah. I think more than seeking to express some grandeur thought, I was hoping to find some solace in the act of writing itself. I don't know what it is that I find soothing/relaxing. I suppose just being able to empty my thoughts and emotions onto this electronic paper, allows me to rest with nothing consuming my mind.
I literally just spent...fifteen minutes, typing a whole paragraph or so, only to erase it on the basis that it served no purpose. Oh well...
So this semester went by, extremely fast. I feel like my classes hadn't even gotten into full swing yet. And BAM. Semester, complete. Half of my sophmore year in college is done, and I still feel like I have no clue what this college business entails.
I guess I can recount what has been accomplished these past few months:
- Got very familiar with my car, once driving 700 miles in one weekend.
- Familiar with drive between home and school; 3 hour car trips ain't got nothin' on me.
- Declared my major as: American PPL[Political Science, Philosophy, and Law].
- First semester as a full fledged brother within my fraternity.
- Passed the 9000 song mark on iTunes.
- Found an amazingly awesome, and awesome-ly amazing girlfriend who I'm crazy about. <3
- Had a semi-successful "DREAMTEAM Weekend," with my awesome friends. Part two is soon to be announced...
- Committed blogger to Tumblr, and part-time with Blogspot(which is linked to my Tumblr).
- Officially done with math/science classes, forever.
- Arabic 102
- Criminal Procedure
- The Literature of War
- Political Islam
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Don't let anyone make you second guess yourself. I'm pretty sure you wouldn't make a decision without thinking it through completely/believing it was the right thing.As long as you're happy, they will be too eventually. As soon as they get over themselves
I'm really starting to wish I knew who these anonymous nice comments were from! But I'm glad you had such a well thought out comment and it appears you actually know me a little better than these other people...yes. The angry commenters. Either way, thanks for the encouragement! =]]]
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
You are such a generous, caring guy. These people are assholes, looking for their 15 minutes of fame. Don't worry about them. You deserve the best. :)
Wow. I'm really glad that in spite of the comments hating on me, more people have come and spoken out against them, on my behalf. I'm not even sure if I deserve the compliments being given, but I'm grateful that some people are good friends who care.
Holy Crap Mike! I cannot believe how many people care about your dating history. I guess their own lives are not interesting enough. Don't you wish your formspring was idiot proof? Then you could answer the relevant questions. -Wyoma
This is why I love you, Wyo. Clearly, we're not the only ones who thinks these people are a little invested.