Sunday, December 26, 2010

RIP Blogspot?

I'm thinking of just retiring this blog.

I have my Tumblr. I liked having a medium for solely textual posts, but I do favor my Tumblr more.

So here goes a temporary hiatus on this guy.


Rest in peace.

Feels Like A Less Jack Nicholson-y Shining.

So yesterday was Christmas. Let's give Christmas a round of applause. Yeah. Good holiday.

But now it's the day after Christmas. And today was the day, NYC and the surrounding areas was hit with a blizzard. I woke up to a sea of white trapping everyone in my uncle's house. It's been said that the snow would get as high as two feet. Which is a lot. And the blizzard warning is in effect until 6pm tomorrow supposedly.

So I've kind of just been in the house all day. To be honest, I probably would've stayed inside all day anyways. But this massive snowfall gives it an eerie feel to it. There are a bunch of other people around the house too, but for the most parts, the house is generally un-lit. So it's been feeling like night for a while. And it's hard to see outside the windows.

I suppose I feel trapped.

Not that I had some grandiose plans that have been interrupted.  But nonetheless, I'm stranded. I can't really drive in these conditions. And I'm stuck(not necessarily in a bad way) with the same group of people. Everyone seems to be wandering around looking for something to do, in these dark hallways. I'm just sitting in one of the bedrooms while my cousin Ryan is on another bed in here, on his laptop. Oh! We also just watched the new reboot of Nightmare on Elm Street. Jackie Earle Haley is pretty cool guy. He plays Freddy Kreuger. But he's also played Rorshach in Watchmen and the sketchy, but awesomw Guerrero in Fox's show, Human Target. Not a bad movie. But I was also on AIM the whole time. So don't take my word for it.

Back to this doomed, trapped feeling...

...well, yeah. I feel trapped. Maybe I'll go outside into the snow. But I have no boots with me. And I hate the cold. And getting wet, sans the shower. Which leads me to believe I shouldn't go outside.

Yeah, driving conditions must suck. I wonder how many car accidents there have been because of it. It'd suck to have died the day after christmas. Atleast I still my laptop. I can escape via the internet. More than there being a lot of snow. It's so gloomy and dark. It makes today seem like some dark and foreboding time.

And I have a cold. I hate getting sick. It rarely ever happens. But since I don't have my own room here and we're all trapped, the chances of getting sick is higher with the forced contact. People get sicker in winter, not because of the cold temperatures directly. But because the cold outside, forces us to stay indoors and in closer physical contact. Making it easier to spread sickness.

THE MORE YOU KNOW.

I guess that's all I have to offer you right now, if you considered that, anything at all.


Sidenote: I want to make the time investment into Krav Maga again.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Apparently It's Christmas Eve...

...and I had no idea it'd be here this quick.

I can't be the only one who feels like this "holiday season" totally snuck up on me. School finished not even a week ago. And since I had school straight from September, sans Thanksgiving break, I feel like I came home looking for a break, only to be thrust into the chaos of CHRISTMAS SHOPPING.

Seriously, for a holiday meant to exude merriness, cheer, generousity, kindness, and so on, so forth--I hate people more than ever. Ok, not hate per se. But they do frustrate me much more, than usual. I'll admit, I can get annoyed while driving at those around me, for incompetent driving manuevers and poor driving etiquette, but for the most part, I am pretty laidback and patient with even the most moronic folks. Really though? C'mon, this is a little much.

Accounting for the moral of the season and the overarching themes that are publicized, I find that people tend to be more temperamental, impatient, rude, and just overall mean. This holiday season has people at each other's throats maybe because they're on the clock and under pressure to get the "perfect gifts." But this unneccesary emphasis on getting the "perfect gifts," has people showing their worst sides. I mean, I understand. We all have people in our lives we care about and want to impress with our thought and consideration via the presentation of a physical manifestation of our affection...in other words, a present. To what end though?

I mean, some of my griefs are inevitable. Considering where I live is already congested like hell, this shopping hysteria has the roads filled to max capacity, sometimes full for multiple blocks, making a typical 10 minute drive...into a half hour. Ok, traffic sucks. I get it. I'll deal for these next few days. But not only am I wasting more gas and more time than usual, but the quality of drivers is at an all-time low. I suppose that with the overall number of drivers increasing, we might assume that proportionally, the percentage of horrible drivers would also go up. People are cutting people off like it's their job, no one remembers what a signal is for, traffic laws go out the window, and no one wants to let anyone go. Because we are our own priority. We are what matters because we are in a hurry. Worse, the mall parking lot is so congested that cars roam like vultures and fight aggressively for a stupid spot closer to the entrance, lest they walk. God forbid they get some exercise. I know in one instance, two cars got into an accident over a spot. I wonder if it was worth it then.

I know that, personally, I had to slam hard on my brakes because some dumb girl was in such a rush, she neglects to look at whether the cars with a green light are going. Cause, why would cars with a green be driving? Nah, she was a bright one to run across the street like she was a damn frog with respawns. Luckily, my years of video gaming have honed my periphs and reflexes. Otherwise, she wouldn't have made it across the street to...WALGREENS? What a crappy place to die for. What're you doing? Getting someone a gift from there? Some cough syrup maybe? Or store brand snacks? I know I wouldn't want to leave this life getting hit by a car while running to a drug store.

I don't know. I wonder about people sometimes. It's upsetting that everyone is so trapped and entwined in their daily happenings and their lives that they neglect to look at the larger picture and the irrational decisions/actions they make or take. Isn't this the time of year where we try a little harder to reach out to others? To strangers? Maybe do something nice with no regard for whether that deed will be returned. What does it say about your character if you only care to look out for and benefit those, who are likely and clearly able to reciprocate? Why buy gifts for people, hoping that they will get you a gift in return? Just save your damn money, get it for yourself, and stop putting up this silly facade of genuinely caring.

I guess this time of a year, really expresses what your priorities are and what kind of person you want to be regarded as.

As we struggle with shopping lists and invitations, compounded by December's bad weather, it is good to be reminded that there are people in our lives who are worth this aggravation, and people to whom we are worth the same. - Donald E. Westlake

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Synopsis of the Mind.

Menomena- Oahu

So, what did I come here with the intention of writing? Good question, but a trick question...don't mind me. I'm borderline delirious from the mass amounts of music history I've been absorbing (all thanks to an awesome and terribly persistent girlfriend).

But yeah. I think more than seeking to express some grandeur thought, I was hoping to find some solace in the act of writing itself.   I don't know what it is that I find soothing/relaxing. I suppose just being able to empty my thoughts and emotions onto this electronic paper, allows me to rest with nothing consuming my mind.

I literally just spent...fifteen minutes, typing a whole paragraph or so, only to erase it on the basis that it served no purpose. Oh well...

So this semester went by, extremely fast. I feel like my classes hadn't even gotten into full swing yet. And BAM. Semester, complete. Half of my sophmore year in college is done, and I still feel like I have no clue what this college business entails.

I guess I can recount what has been accomplished these past few months:

  • Got very familiar with my car, once driving 700 miles in one weekend.
  • Familiar with drive between home and school; 3 hour car trips ain't got nothin' on me.
  • Declared my major as: American PPL[Political Science, Philosophy, and Law].
  • First semester as a full fledged brother within my fraternity.
  • Passed the 9000 song mark on iTunes.
  • Found an amazingly awesome, and awesome-ly amazing girlfriend who I'm crazy about. <3
  • Had a semi-successful "DREAMTEAM Weekend," with my awesome friends. Part two is soon to be announced...
  • Committed blogger to Tumblr, and part-time with Blogspot(which is linked to my Tumblr).
  • Officially done with math/science classes, forever
That's all I can recall, in my semi-aware state of consciousness at this moment. I'm sure there's more, but all in all, based on just the aforementioned bullets, I'd say it was a pretty good semester.

It's scary to think how fast time has been flying though. I'd hate for me to miss out on the times I should be savoring, only to realize I'm a middle-aged dude working full-time left with the remnants of memories from my younger years. I don't think this semester was as eventful as it could be, but I'm hoping to kick things up a notch come 2011. 

Speaking of which, switching to using the new year is always so annoying. Gah. Whatever, I guess that it's a fact of life. Atleast next semester I'm somewhat excited for my course load. I think it'll be enjoyable, or at the bare minimum, interesting:
  1. Arabic 102
  2. Criminal Procedure
  3. The Literature of War
  4. Political Islam
Yup. So I guess we'll see come May how that goes. Currently, I'm looking to find a job for over Winter Break. I'd like to have some steady income. If only, to put gas in my car. 

Alright. I'm done telling you about my life. Go away. Ahaha.


Night.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Don't let anyone make you second guess yourself. I'm pretty sure you wouldn't make a decision without thinking it through completely/believing it was the right thing.As long as you're happy, they will be too eventually. As soon as they get over themselves

I'm really starting to wish I knew who these anonymous nice comments were from! But I'm glad you had such a well thought out comment and it appears you actually know me a little better than these other people...yes. The angry commenters. Either way, thanks for the encouragement! =]]]

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Wednesday, December 8, 2010

You are such a generous, caring guy. These people are assholes, looking for their 15 minutes of fame. Don't worry about them. You deserve the best. :)

Wow. I'm really glad that in spite of the comments hating on me, more people have come and spoken out against them, on my behalf. I'm not even sure if I deserve the compliments being given, but I'm grateful that some people are good friends who care.

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Holy Crap Mike! I cannot believe how many people care about your dating history. I guess their own lives are not interesting enough. Don't you wish your formspring was idiot proof? Then you could answer the relevant questions. -Wyoma

This is why I love you, Wyo. Clearly, we're not the only ones who thinks these people are a little invested.

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Tuesday, December 7, 2010

fuck the haters. saints all day

SAINTS ALL DAY, BABY.

Yitbos, my brother.

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Can you please let these lifeless lames that are coming at your neck know that I won't hesitate to come up there with the wal-mart security guards and the 7-11 crew to kick some ass...I'm just sayin...

Ahahahahaha. Possibly one of THEE best reactions. Man, I'm starting to be grateful for the hate--only to because of people like you.

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Wooooooooow people needa get lives dude. Too concerned with all your shit that aint their business. Nice responses though lol

I love the people who comment on the other comments. You guys make my day--well, part of it. Haha. But thanks, I am proud of my answers.

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Honestly, if you were with the right girl before, you would not have let her go. What bothers me the most is that you're a heartbreaker and you don't seem to care about anyone but yourself. I hope your new girlfriend knows what she's getting into.

In this case, based on your statement: "Honestly, if you were with the right girl before, you would not have let her go," then obviously she was NOT the right girl. You are the one making this assertion which would then imply, that me not being with her, would mean I wasn't with the right girl before. But more than that, you clearly don't know me and aren't fully informed on all that went on, so your ability to properly judge as a stranger, is not very qualified.

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mike kumar is the biggest sweetheart do these people know you???

Haha. Thanks, whoever this is. I appreciate your kindness and your willingness to stand up for me. And I'm going to assume, no, they don't know me.

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Honestly, if you were with the right girl before, you would not have let her go. What bothers me the most is that you're a heartbreaker and you don't seem to care about anyone but yourself. I hope your new girlfriend knows what she's getting into.

In this case, based on your statement: "Honestly, if you were with the right girl before, you would not have let her go," then obviously she was NOT the right girl. You are the one making this assertion which would then imply, that me not being with her, would mean I wasn't with the right girl before. But more than that, you clearly don't know me and aren't fully informed on all that went on, so you ability to properly judge as a stranger, is not very qualified.

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Some obscure family member you never knew has died and left you with a million dollars. What do you do with it?

Probably put the majority of it away into investments, then I would pay for any debts/costs that I've incurred. Once I start making enough revenue, I'd build the most ballin' house with secret rooms....yeah. But keep raking more in.

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DUDE I CANT SLEEP O_O;; HOW DO I SLEEP WHAT IS SLEEP

Ahahaha. You can't sleep? I have trouble going to sleep anytime before 1-2am. And that would be early. But if you want some company when you are having trouble sleeping--I'm up pretty late.

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u jakass. u had the rite girl and never took her seriously.

I really, really hope you're attempting to make your spelling that horrible in an attempt to disguise your identity.

Secondly, it's over. But apparently you can't wrap your head around that? And if I "never took her seriously," couldn't you argue that it's better off this way so that she could find the right guy? Rather, you're suggesting I remain in a relationship with her, even if it's not in HER best interest--but mine.

You're retarded. Sorry. Go to sleep.

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Fuck da h@ta$~

Hahaha. <3 you.

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you have not learned anything from your past relationships because you are still as immature and you make the same horrible mistakes that will come back and screw you over.

Ok, so out of the 3-4 posts I got that are either from the same person/group, this was the one I saved for last. As said in my other response, I'm going to go ahead and abstain from responding to further posts/questions with no underlying foundation. Because, at the heart of it, you're just being a pathetic, annoying, and sad person whose life is surely to reflect this. Maybe not now, but eventually. I find it disappointing that you feel the need to make claims with nothing to back it up. And I'm going to go ahead and assert I'm fairly sure who is responsible/involved. But what I find confusing, is that, you require formspring to state you opinions. What this tells me is, that you're probably fake/two-faced with your friends. Why? Well, if you must hide in the anonymity to speak your mind and try to provide the illusion that we're still friends in every other capacity, you're clearly lacking some balls. I mean, there's no way around it--if you want to have a serious conversation or atleast own up to your words, you could post publicly and not post anonymously. But to maintain the facade that we are friends in some other respect, because you clearly haven't offended me publicly or revealed who you are, is what I find shameful. I wish you the best and hope that one day you realize the err of YOUR ways. Sorry to let you down, but I hope that you take something away from this.

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I'm not sure what provoked such affection/admiration, so I'm inclined to assume this isn't serious--but if you are, I'm flattered. I'm a pretty friendly guy, so feel free to talk to/text me. Please read this and NOT think you are a tool.

I'm really at a loss for what you're seeking to accomplish? Am I supposed to be emotionally torn because a random person thinks I'm a tool...cause I'm really not. But while we're on the subject, I think you're a tool too. And my reasoning? For bothering with even posting this.

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STOP THINKING YOU ARE SMART.

You're right. I'm dumb. What was I thinking?

Oh, and I was being sarcastic, in case you didn't pick up on that.

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yea i saw your whole retaliation post about relationships and you're still huge tool. you are a very pretentious person who thinks they know a great deal about everything, while in reality I'm not sure you quite know anything at all.

Alright, awesome. Thanks for the input.

But on a more serious note, you fail to provide any justification. You're entitled to your opinions, and I'm entitled to not caring. If you have anything to say that isn't just subjective mindless epiphanies you have, you know where to find me. But if you just waste words and time, then I'm going to go ahead and ignore you.

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Friday, December 3, 2010

On That Note...

I was doing some thinking, partially because of a certain formspring post-
"You are the last person on earth I would ever want relationship advice from. Your relationship track record is pitiful and that blog post was a complete JOKE."
Also because I feel like this needs to be addressed in general because maybe it wasn't completely clear in my last post:

I never claimed to be perfect or all-knowing when it comes to relationships. Not in any way, shape, or form. I mean, let's be honest, who is?

But I don't think it's contestable that along the way, I've observed or picked on somethings. Whether these were things I got from just thinking, or whether my SO fell short, or I fell short--it doesn't make the advice/suggestions any less true. Therefore, whether I'm credible or not, if the advice is pretty standard and generally agreeable to almost everyone, I don't see the issue.

I can be an awesome sports column writer, but that doesn't imply that I'm the next All-Star player in whatever sport. [And no, I'm not saying I'm an awesome writer, just making a point.] Further, that whole argument is based on the fact that I'm absolutely horrible at relationships, which I don't think is entirely true. I admit that I'm flawed, but I do believe I put a lot of effort into my relationships, which is evident in their longetivity and seriousness. So I find that to be a moot point.

And along those lines, I believe that not every relationship is the be all, end all. I think relationships serve their purposes in your life, to help you grow, learn about yourself, and how you are with others. You also get to learn what matters to you and what you can let go.  That's why I'm not of opinion that you can fall in love only once. I don't think anyone has the ability to judge someone else's emotions/affection, so all you can do is evaluate yourself.

Thinking back, I don't know if I completely regret any relationship, even the really bad ones. I did take something away from them all and it helped shape me into who I am today. In addition to that, I am glad that they all ended when they did, because I think it was all for the best, even if I didn't want to accept it as such at the time.

TL;DR- I don't claim to be the best boyfriend[though I don't think I'm the worst] but I do claim to know a thing or three about relationships and will continue to write as I see fit.

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